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"I really messed up this time, didn’t I?" Anita said with a sad smile. Lucive walked slowly over to the rock that she sat on. "There was enough of you left that I could find you. Ryan was upset that it was I who could bring you back and he could find no trace of you." "I’m glad you didn’t listen to him," Anita commented. A confused look crossed Anita’s face. "Who is Ryan?" "Ryan is the cleric Freean recruited to join our cause. He doesn’t quite like me. Necromancy apparently go with his holier than thou attitude." Lucive sighed. "We should be heading back. Dimitri was hysterical when we thought you were dead." Anita looked down, a troubled expression on her face. "I’d like to stay here a little while longer. There are things that have changed. I’ve changed." Lucive hesitantly walked closer to Anita. "You probably won’t remember anything that we’re talking about here, but there is something that I want to say to you." He reached for her hand. Anita smiled. "Then why don’t you wait and tell me when I wake?" Lucive returned the smile. "This is something I could never say to you in the real world." He stared into Anita’s emerald eyes. "Anita, I am in love with you." Without waiting for a response, he leaned over and gave Anita a gentle, lingering kiss. He slowly pulled away, his gaze never leaving Anita’s eyes. "Lucive…" she whispered. Lucive placed a finger over her lips. "Please don’t say anything. While you may not remember this I will, and I would like for nothing to ruin this perfect memory." Anita nodded. "I think I am ready to go back now." Lucive guided her away from the rock and towards the mist. "All you have to do is walk this way until you wake up." * * * Lucive opened his eyes as he returned to the living realm. His comrades were anxiously gathered around the sleeping Anita. "She is on her way back to us," he declared. Dimitri breathed a sigh of relief. "I was so worried she was lost to us forever. Thank you for finding her." You would not thank me if you knew what happened in the other realm Lucive thought sadly. “There is no need to thank me. She would have found her way back without my help, I just sped the process up a little. It may be a while before she wakes. We should probably set up camp here for the night.” Dimitri nodded. “I will go gather some firewood. Ronan will go find us some food, Freean set up the tent. And Lucive, watch over her.” No one argued with Dimitri. He was their leader after all. As everyone went about their tasks, Lucive waited patiently by Anita’s side. While he waited, he wondered if he had done the right thing by telling Anita that he loved her. Speaking truths in the realm between life and death can be dangerous. In all likelihood, Anita would not remember their conversation and no harm would be done. But what if she did? Lucive shuddered at the thought. It was a well-known fact that Dimitri held claim to Anita’s heart. It was not as well known how she felt. Everyone simply assumed she returned the adoration Dimitri showered upon her. Only Lucive doubted the truth. Love is reflected in the eyes of the beholder, and Lucive saw nothing reflected in Anita’s eyes when she looked at Dimitri. And what did he see when she looked at him? He preffered not to think of that.He sighed and continued on his vigil. The light of the day began to fade and still Anita did not wake. Dimitri paced in front of the campfire he had built. Everyone else simply sat in silence.
2nd version (notes first and then the story)
Anita is sitting on a park bench facing a lake. Her friend Alex is sitting next to her chatting nonstop. Her mind is not on the conversation at hand. A gentle breeze disturbs the surface of the water. She closes her eyes, remembering a different lake and a very different companion. Anita… She sighs longingly and wished his voice were clearer in her mind. “Anita!” Alex breaks into her daydream. She turns to look at him. For the smallest moment she doesn’t seem to recognize him. The moment quickly passes. She had always been prone to daydreaming, but it had become worse since her latest trip beyond the realm of Earth. The expression on Alex’s face is one of concern, and Anita can see the sadness in his eyes. It bothered her that she was the reason. “I’m sorry Alex. I didn’t mean to let my mind wander.” She smiled and shifted so she was facing him. “I promise I am listening now.”The concern disappeared from his face, replaced with a large smile as he continued with his story. “I got a letter in the mail the other day from the magic society. I go to take my test in two days.” “That’s wonderful Alex!” It was easy to be excited about the potential to travel to other worlds. Alex was obviously excited. “And when I pass we can go to Lavana together.” Anita’s smile instantly faded. Lavana was the last place she wanted to go. “Alex… I won’t go back there.” “Anita, I’m sorry.” He paused, knowing it was a touchy subject. “I guess you haven’t heard back from him yet.” Him of course meaning Lucive. “No, I haven’t heard from him. I’m sure there must be a good reason.” Alex gave her an uncertain look. “You know I believe everything you have told me about Lavana, right?” Anita nodded. “But when you died…” He didn’t like the idea that his best friend had been dead, even if it was for a short while. “Are you sure you remember what happened between you and Lucive correctly?” Anita blushed. If she tried hard enough she could still feel Lucive’s warm lips against her own. “I’m very certain. I’m sure I didn’t misinterpret his intentions.” Alex sighed. Anita didn’t normally allow herself to indulge her imagination this much. Necromancers were incapable of love. Lucive must be some sort of monster to play with her mind this much. “Anita please listen to me. I’ve done some research, and no one who has been brought back from the brink of death remembers how they managed to come back.” Anita shifted uneasily and turned to face the lake once again. “That may very well be, but I do remember.” *this is where I stopped writing and then added this: So how does the story end? Probably not the way you think. Anita does leave Donovan, but not to be with Lucive. Sorry to disappoint you. Lucive brought Anita back to life. He saved her when no one else could. But he wasn’t for her. *This is where I intended to stop. But, inevitably I keep getting drawn back to this story. I still don’t know if anything more will be written, but Anita is always in the back of my mind. “But he wasn’t for her.” Those words seem pretty definitive at first glance and for me they were until I started thinking about them. I started asking myself the question “but what if he was”? What if Anita and Lucive really were meant for each other? As far as I can see it leaves her with two choices. Does she fight to change what has happened? Does she risk having her heart broken again and again, putting the pieces back together and losing a little of herself each time for a chance at true love? Or does she move on? Maybe she finds someone else and it’s only a shadow of true love, but still love. Or maybe I just think too much. Either way, I don’t know where Anita’s story leads her and probably never will.* |
